Happy Halloween!!

With much coaxing Analise decided to be Belle for Halloween. Doesn't she look gorgeous! And look no cast! After only 4 weeks her cast was removed! We really had an eventful week! We went to a Trunk or Treat last Saturday at my sister's ward. Then we went trick-or-treating in downtown Lincoln on Friday. Which is my favorite! That same evening we got together with the neighbors and ate pizza and carved pumpkins! It was a BLAST!!! We let Analise carve her own pumpkin and it turned out so cute! She did get a little excited with her knife and decided to cut her friends pumpkin into 3 pieces! OOPS!!! We decided on Halloween that Analise could have a free day and eat as much candy as she wanted! We went Trick-or-Treating with the neighbors and it was so much fun! She started walking a little funny and I knew it was time to quit! We ended the night with this!!! She was a little sick! So we said maybe tomorrow we will only have 3 pieces of candy. And she said "No I don't want to have any candy."

Having a pity party!

My daughter is getting older, less dependent, not as lovey dubby every minute. And time is ticking! She will be 7 in a few more months and I will be 30. She is gone all day at school and the few hours I have with her are crucial! I miss her! I tried to push the feelings of wanting another child aside by saying "Oh, one child is enough, we are happy with one." I tried to replace those feelings with a new puppy (that turned out totally wrong for our family), running, trying to serve in my calling more but it only helped during those moments and then the feelings would come back ten-fold. My heart is aching for someone to depend on me and love me again. I miss that with my daughter. I miss feeling her kick inside me, those precious moments at the 2 am feeding, watching her as she learned to walk, talk, eat whatever it is! And I loved changing her diapers. I miss it all! I want to do it all again! As I read others blogs, look at pictures, talk to other families, truly my heart is aching! I don't want to hear one more person say to me "At least you have one." "Why chance it" "Be happy with you got"! I know I am very blessed to have one and I love the new adventures we are living with her but am I selfish to want another!? To want Analise to be a big sister. To see my husbands face when I tell him I'm pregnant! I want to feel and experience it all again! I'm so jealous and it is so hard to hear when others are pregnant! I'm happy for you but I want to cry! So for now.....JUST LET ME CRY!!!

To take the pain away

On Monday we got a call from school that Analise was in the nurse's office in pain! So I rushed to the school and her wrist was swollen on her left arm and she was crying! They said she had fallen from the tall bar at recess. Ouch! Luckily I was able to pass Riley off to her mom and we met Cody at the hospital. She was being so tough...every once in a while she would cry and say she wanted to scream because it her hurt so bad! They did some x-rays and the doctor came in and said it was broken. They wheeled us into a room and said they would need to put Analise to sleep in order to put the bone back in place. The doctor of course walked me through the procedure but I don't think I wanted to listen to all of the things that could happen...I only wanted to hear that they were going to fix her! Cody held her while they put the I.V. in her arm and that was the time when she screamed and then Cody went white and I had to take his place! Let me tell you it's one thing when you are getting an I.V. or anything done but when your daughter is laying in so much pain in the hospital and you can't take that pain away it is a totally different experience and one that I hope you don't have to experience! I can't imagine going through this everyday with cancer or any other disease. I felt woosy a few times, it was just to painful to watch! With pain medication in her, hooked up to all the machines, oxygen going in her they were ready to put the bone in place. We left the room for this part!!! She woke up within 10 minutes with a splint (soft cast) on and they sent us home.

Home was rough! It was just sad to see her want to do things herself and cry because she couldn't. Her fingers looked like little sausages because they were so swollen. Nighttime was even harder she couldn't get comfortable and the pain was the worst when she was trying to sleep!

One night I think the medicine made her a little loopy and she talked about the tattoo on her face and the lions on the rocket. She needed to go potty, so Cody told her to stand up and he would hold her arm to get off the bed...and she said "Why, my arms aren't broken!?" It was pretty funny!

Now it is Thursday and we have gone all day without medicine and she hasn't complained once of pain! She is even trying to do things with her arm and we are so thrilled to know that it is slowly getting better! In 1 week she will get her hard cast on and then it will be a countdown to the day it comes off! And we will try to send her back to school tomorrow! How grateful I am for wonderful friends and family that have given Analise so much love! It has sure made it easier!!!

Just 1 of the fun things from Time Out!

Much Needed Time Out

I just wanted to tell all women out there that Time Out for Women is just that and every sister could use a Time Out right? That is exactly what I needed and got! I was inspired to re-focus my life back to the Savior and be the best woman that I can be! There was some really great speakers and sensational music talent. Sheri Dew, S. Michael Wilcox, Wendy Watson Nelson the wife of Russel M. Nelson and my personal favorite was Kim Belcher. The talent was singer Hilary Weeks and violist Jenni Oaks Baker. I just loved it!

A few of my favorite quotes from the weekend were:
Sheri Dew - "Learn the language of your personal revelation - it takes a long time to learn it and ask the Lord for help"
Kim Nelson - "It's okay to be blessed and grateful and have a bad day"
Deanne Flynn - "Motherhood is the greatest challenge because it never ends." "Focus on the things that last"
Kris Belcher - "If you want something...anything just turn to Jesus Christ."
The theme was SWEET ASSURANCE! And we were challenged to think of something we know, that we have had sweet assurance of in our lives!

I KNOW THAT MY FAMILY IS FOREVER and that just makes everything that I do in this life more important and my title as a mother all the more important! Because I want all of my family to be together for eternity!
I hope that if you ever get a change to go to Time Out that you will take it because you won't regret it! You will be inspired and left feeling LOVED!!!

1st Day of School

Yesterday was the first day of FIRST Grade. Analise was nervous and so was Mom! Once I showed her around her classroom and found her desk...she was happy as a clam! "This is great", I thought! Until about 11:30 and the baby I watch was napping and it was quiet and I mean quiet in my house! "What do I do?" I thought. And then the tears started flowing! I was so sad that she was gone and I didn't know what to do without my best friend! Luckily my sister helped me through the tears and I was able to accomplish something that day...even if it was a banner that said "Welcome Home Analise" and a trip to Target for a little gift for her 1st day. Yes I am a pathetic mom! But I know it will get easier and I will eventually enjoy my time! When she came home it was so perfect because she loved everything about her day! Yeah! Happy 1st day of school everyone!

Overview of our summer!

This summer was actually a quiet summer! We didn't go too many places or make ourselves crazy. But we enjoyed it none the less. Here is a few things that happened... Trixie got her 1st haircut! Yes this is the dog that we all were so excited to get and we are still learning to love her! Emphasize on the learning!!! But I have to say she is pretty adorable! We put her in training classes so hopefully it helps! 4th of July was a Blast! We started it off by running a 5K in Roseville! My first ever! Cristy and Mandi were the culprits that pushed me to do it and then I decided to get my family involved. So my sister and my dad ran! It sparked the runner in me! Because now I have to say I enjoy running! I finished in 29:21! My goal was under 30 minutes so I did it! Now I'm shooting for a half marathon! I loved the atmosphere and I think this will be something we do every year! Then we enjoyed the rest of our day relaxing! And then ended with fireworks of course! My daughter is a fish! We did 2 sessions of swim lessons and she passed level 2! Everyday she asked if she could swim! Luckily we have 4 neighbors with pools and let me tell ya...we used them all! We ended the summer with a camping trip to Bodega Dunes on the coast. It was so nice and cool! The beach was a little too cold but we enjoyed it anyways! We just had so much fun! The only thing that wasn't fun was the skunks and raccoons in our campground! Yikes they just got a little too close! I think we definitely need to make a trip back to the beach!

A comedian?

Month 2 of summer break and I have enjoyed the moments that I have shared with Analise. From swim lessons to just lounging in our pj's until afternoon. She is a hoot lately. She is always coming up with some funny things and has brought joy to me this summer. Here has been some of our conversations: While driving in the car, Mom says "Today is going to be busy and I'm not looking forward to it" Analise "Just save the drama and send it to NETFLIX!" ---- While talking with the neighbors outside. Analise says "Everyone's a critic!" --- Just talking about Daddy coming home from work. Analise says "Boys have no sense of humor!" And then you can't help but laugh at the picture...She is such a joy! And I once heard that LAUGHTER IS INNER JOGGING!!! So Analise, thanks for helping me work out just a little more!

My ministering ANGEL

You know when you just have one of those days that everything that can go wrong, does!? Well that's my day today! Nothing went right and I kept saying it was going to get better and it just didn't.... It's only day 2 of Cody out of town for 2 weeks straight and it is just a little crazy. But I have had a prayer in my heart all day that something would make it easier! And I'm in tears as I think about a simple prayer that was answered! A knock on my door, a plate of cookies (since cookies always makes things better) and a sweet note that says I was thinking about you, I love you!!! That was it! So whoever was my angel today...THANK YOU for listening and being an answer to my prayer! I love you, too!

9 years and counting!

Wow, how time flies? It has been 9 years since we were sealed in the Salt Lake Temple and I just wanted to pay tribute to the man that has made those 9 years wonderful! He is such a fun person to be around. Even serious things in life can be funny and it makes for 9 years of laughter. I love that he helps me out so much. Cooking, cleaning and getting Analise ready...he is almost an expert at doing her hair. It makes for 9 years of having a 2nd mom around the house. And he is so wonderful at letting me know that I'm a good mother and wife. It makes for 9 years of a happy me! I love this man and I can't wait to see what the next years will bring! Happy Anniversary Sweetheart!

It's just like having a new baby!?

It all started when the due date was set for Easter weekend. We got a phone call that said she wouldn't be here for another week. The long week finally passed! The due date was here again. And I was nesting, seriously cleaning the whole house from top to bottom. We drove quickly to the airport and anxiously waited with 2 other families. After 2 long hours, we got more bad news. False labor? She missed her flight and we could pick her up at 11:45 at night. Drove home and put Analise to bed. Cody drove out himself and I blogged away until he got home. Cody walked in and I was in tears. The sweetest little face poking out at me. She was the tiniest thing I had ever seen. We cleaned her up and the adventure began. Waking up in the middle of the night, wondering if she was okay and not to mention the potty breaks. But after 1 night she was sleeping through the night and I thought this is too easy.....Little did I know....Postpartum depression....in the worst kind of way!! The pooping and peeing inside has got to stop and not to mention the running from me and biting!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!! Then I'm reminded by Cody that she is just 10 weeks old and she is learning just like a baby! Do I have this in me? I hope I can hold out because the joy that little Trixie has brought to Analise is beyond comparison! She is always happy to wake up and take her potty in the morning and play with her. She is even sad that she has to miss her while she is at school. She just loves her...I mean who would let a dog lick there face all over and I mean all over! They are 2 peas in a pod! So I will make it and I'm sure after 6 months, she will be the best addition to our family! And she will be a JOY to all of us! Welcome to our family Trixie!

Updates

There are 3 new posts. So make sure you scroll down and read them all! There will be 1 more tomorrow about our new puppy!

Easter Weekend

Spring is here and we were able to enjoy a beautiful Easter weekend. Lots of festivities happening around here. We went to Grandmas and Grandpas for a hunt. Then we got to spend some time out at the Felt's for the annual Easter hug hunt! Which is always so much fun!!! Then my favorite dying easter eggs out in our court with our wonderful neighbors. We had a BBQ afterwards! YUMMO! The Easter bunny visited on Sunday morning and he had hid all the eggs around the whole court and all the neighbors were out hunting. That sneaky Easter Bunny! Then it was off to church...

It's Turkey Time

Cody is hunting turkey and he is like a kid in a candy store...gleaming from ear to ear when he brought this turkey home! Yum! Yum! Even Analise thought it was pretty neat.

My sweet dancer

Yes I know she is the cutest dancer ever! Thanks to Caitlin and Elisabeth Elzea my little girl is dancing!!!! That has always been my dream to be a dancer...was for a few years and never kept going. So I was hoping when I had a little girl that she would want to be a dancer and here she is dancing away! I think I was living vicariously through her. My beautiful girl! She performed 3 dances. A hip-hop, ballet and jazz routine. They were adorable!

How old?

Yes, I turned 29 on Thursday! How is it that I used to count the days until my birthday was here and now I can't even remember how old I am? Oh well....It was a really fun day! Cody played off of our favorite TV show "The Office" and attempted to put my present in Jell-O! Funny guy! And he got me a yummy cake from Coldstone! What more could I ask for! Oh wait...all of the wonderful people that I love saying Happy Birthday to me! Birthdays are still so much fun...even if I can't remember how old I am!

It was FABULOUS!

Today we had 8 girls come over and celebrate Analise's birthday! It was all about High School Musical. It was so fun! We played some awesome games. Name that song, Pass the microphone around (hot potato) and my favorite, Find the hidden cell phones! After all the screaming, we ended with cake and ice cream! What a FABULOUS party!!!

Oh, It's also someone's birthday!

Happy Birthday my big 6 year old! Okay so only child and a bit spoiled....YES!!! Look what we got her.... It's also my present too! Cody surprised us both with her. Her name is Trixie and she is 4 weeks old. When she is 1 pound they will send her to our home and she will be ours! She is a Yorkshire Terrier. We are so excited! When we told Analise she cried because she was so happy! Isn't that adorable! We've all been needing to love something and now it will be an adorable puppy!

St. Patty's Day

What a fun day we had. We did a lot of things at home and school. Green eggs and milk for breakfast, leprechaun traps, no one caught the leprechauns though...sneaky little critters. They got lots of goodies! And she was too excited about her birthday! Here is the picture of her adorable leprechaun trap.

President's Day

Okay so this is a little late but Analise has been learning about the President's in Kindergarten the past few weeks and the other day for her homework she had to name the President's of the United States that she knew. So the list went like this.....Abraham Lincoln, George Washington, Barack O'bama, Thomas S. Monson and Gordon B. Hinckley he was my favorite! And wasn't Joseph Smith one too. I think she is a little confused...but it is good to know that she has been listening to us and at church. Too cute!

Oh what to do on a rainy day?

We have been needing rain in California and we received a lot today. We couldn't think of anything else to do but to play in it! Oh how glad I was that I got to take the pictures! Analise said it was the best day of her life! I think it was...the pictures tell it all! Find joy in the little things!

The month of December

Well the year is gone! And the month of December flew by! Shopping, wrapping, parties, more shopping, more wrapping and more parties where did the time go?! It was a really busy month but at the same time memorable. I wanted to share some of the memorable things that happened in December and wish all of you a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!