Monday, November 2, 2009

Happy Halloween!!

With much coaxing Analise decided to be Belle for Halloween. Doesn't she look gorgeous! And look no cast! After only 4 weeks her cast was removed! We really had an eventful week! We went to a Trunk or Treat last Saturday at my sister's ward. Then we went trick-or-treating in downtown Lincoln on Friday. Which is my favorite! That same evening we got together with the neighbors and ate pizza and carved pumpkins! It was a BLAST!!! We let Analise carve her own pumpkin and it turned out so cute! She did get a little excited with her knife and decided to cut her friends pumpkin into 3 pieces! OOPS!!! We decided on Halloween that Analise could have a free day and eat as much candy as she wanted! We went Trick-or-Treating with the neighbors and it was so much fun! She started walking a little funny and I knew it was time to quit! We ended the night with this!!! She was a little sick! So we said maybe tomorrow we will only have 3 pieces of candy. And she said "No I don't want to have any candy."

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Having a pity party!

My daughter is getting older, less dependent, not as lovey dubby every minute. And time is ticking! She will be 7 in a few more months and I will be 30. She is gone all day at school and the few hours I have with her are crucial! I miss her! I tried to push the feelings of wanting another child aside by saying "Oh, one child is enough, we are happy with one." I tried to replace those feelings with a new puppy (that turned out totally wrong for our family), running, trying to serve in my calling more but it only helped during those moments and then the feelings would come back ten-fold. My heart is aching for someone to depend on me and love me again. I miss that with my daughter. I miss feeling her kick inside me, those precious moments at the 2 am feeding, watching her as she learned to walk, talk, eat whatever it is! And I loved changing her diapers. I miss it all! I want to do it all again! As I read others blogs, look at pictures, talk to other families, truly my heart is aching! I don't want to hear one more person say to me "At least you have one." "Why chance it" "Be happy with you got"! I know I am very blessed to have one and I love the new adventures we are living with her but am I selfish to want another!? To want Analise to be a big sister. To see my husbands face when I tell him I'm pregnant! I want to feel and experience it all again! I'm so jealous and it is so hard to hear when others are pregnant! I'm happy for you but I want to cry! So for now.....JUST LET ME CRY!!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

To take the pain away

On Monday we got a call from school that Analise was in the nurse's office in pain! So I rushed to the school and her wrist was swollen on her left arm and she was crying! They said she had fallen from the tall bar at recess. Ouch! Luckily I was able to pass Riley off to her mom and we met Cody at the hospital. She was being so tough...every once in a while she would cry and say she wanted to scream because it her hurt so bad! They did some x-rays and the doctor came in and said it was broken. They wheeled us into a room and said they would need to put Analise to sleep in order to put the bone back in place. The doctor of course walked me through the procedure but I don't think I wanted to listen to all of the things that could happen...I only wanted to hear that they were going to fix her! Cody held her while they put the I.V. in her arm and that was the time when she screamed and then Cody went white and I had to take his place! Let me tell you it's one thing when you are getting an I.V. or anything done but when your daughter is laying in so much pain in the hospital and you can't take that pain away it is a totally different experience and one that I hope you don't have to experience! I can't imagine going through this everyday with cancer or any other disease. I felt woosy a few times, it was just to painful to watch! With pain medication in her, hooked up to all the machines, oxygen going in her they were ready to put the bone in place. We left the room for this part!!! She woke up within 10 minutes with a splint (soft cast) on and they sent us home.

Home was rough! It was just sad to see her want to do things herself and cry because she couldn't. Her fingers looked like little sausages because they were so swollen. Nighttime was even harder she couldn't get comfortable and the pain was the worst when she was trying to sleep!

One night I think the medicine made her a little loopy and she talked about the tattoo on her face and the lions on the rocket. She needed to go potty, so Cody told her to stand up and he would hold her arm to get off the bed...and she said "Why, my arms aren't broken!?" It was pretty funny!

Now it is Thursday and we have gone all day without medicine and she hasn't complained once of pain! She is even trying to do things with her arm and we are so thrilled to know that it is slowly getting better! In 1 week she will get her hard cast on and then it will be a countdown to the day it comes off! And we will try to send her back to school tomorrow! How grateful I am for wonderful friends and family that have given Analise so much love! It has sure made it easier!!!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Just 1 of the fun things from Time Out!

Much Needed Time Out

I just wanted to tell all women out there that Time Out for Women is just that and every sister could use a Time Out right? That is exactly what I needed and got! I was inspired to re-focus my life back to the Savior and be the best woman that I can be! There was some really great speakers and sensational music talent. Sheri Dew, S. Michael Wilcox, Wendy Watson Nelson the wife of Russel M. Nelson and my personal favorite was Kim Belcher. The talent was singer Hilary Weeks and violist Jenni Oaks Baker. I just loved it!

A few of my favorite quotes from the weekend were:
Sheri Dew - "Learn the language of your personal revelation - it takes a long time to learn it and ask the Lord for help"
Kim Nelson - "It's okay to be blessed and grateful and have a bad day"
Deanne Flynn - "Motherhood is the greatest challenge because it never ends." "Focus on the things that last"
Kris Belcher - "If you want something...anything just turn to Jesus Christ."
The theme was SWEET ASSURANCE! And we were challenged to think of something we know, that we have had sweet assurance of in our lives!

I KNOW THAT MY FAMILY IS FOREVER and that just makes everything that I do in this life more important and my title as a mother all the more important! Because I want all of my family to be together for eternity!
I hope that if you ever get a change to go to Time Out that you will take it because you won't regret it! You will be inspired and left feeling LOVED!!!

Friday, August 21, 2009

1st Day of School

Yesterday was the first day of FIRST Grade. Analise was nervous and so was Mom! Once I showed her around her classroom and found her desk...she was happy as a clam! "This is great", I thought! Until about 11:30 and the baby I watch was napping and it was quiet and I mean quiet in my house! "What do I do?" I thought. And then the tears started flowing! I was so sad that she was gone and I didn't know what to do without my best friend! Luckily my sister helped me through the tears and I was able to accomplish something that day...even if it was a banner that said "Welcome Home Analise" and a trip to Target for a little gift for her 1st day. Yes I am a pathetic mom! But I know it will get easier and I will eventually enjoy my time! When she came home it was so perfect because she loved everything about her day! Yeah! Happy 1st day of school everyone!

Overview of our summer!

This summer was actually a quiet summer! We didn't go too many places or make ourselves crazy. But we enjoyed it none the less. Here is a few things that happened... Trixie got her 1st haircut! Yes this is the dog that we all were so excited to get and we are still learning to love her! Emphasize on the learning!!! But I have to say she is pretty adorable! We put her in training classes so hopefully it helps! 4th of July was a Blast! We started it off by running a 5K in Roseville! My first ever! Cristy and Mandi were the culprits that pushed me to do it and then I decided to get my family involved. So my sister and my dad ran! It sparked the runner in me! Because now I have to say I enjoy running! I finished in 29:21! My goal was under 30 minutes so I did it! Now I'm shooting for a half marathon! I loved the atmosphere and I think this will be something we do every year! Then we enjoyed the rest of our day relaxing! And then ended with fireworks of course! My daughter is a fish! We did 2 sessions of swim lessons and she passed level 2! Everyday she asked if she could swim! Luckily we have 4 neighbors with pools and let me tell ya...we used them all! We ended the summer with a camping trip to Bodega Dunes on the coast. It was so nice and cool! The beach was a little too cold but we enjoyed it anyways! We just had so much fun! The only thing that wasn't fun was the skunks and raccoons in our campground! Yikes they just got a little too close! I think we definitely need to make a trip back to the beach!